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Paralyzed
04:04
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You’re paralyzed
and I’m in my mind
and I can’t decide
whether I’ve died.
You’ve found a light now
and I’m so sad
‘cause I’m still alive.
Take me with you when you fly
wherever you’re going.
Take me with you. I don’t care
where we go from here.
(Wait let me try that again.)
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Flame Retardant Suit
05:16
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How many of us
don’t know what we want?
How many graduates
still live with their moms?
What are all the things
that eat away at you?
Whatever you run away from always seems to come true.
Who you gonna be?
What are you gonna do?
Whatever you run away from always seems to come true,
so get
closer
get a little closer,
closer to your truth.
What do you do when joining a community
means playing with the typical tongues of fire?
I get burned for being honest,
burned for being myself,
burned for playing the game
'cause then I can't live with myself,
burned for being modest,
burned for hating myself,
burned for staying away
'cause then I can’t live by myself.
Sure I could wear
a flame retardant suit
but that only seems to save me from the best of you.
Already callous from scars:
sometimes this suit becomes a prison.
How many layers of skin
do I have to lose
to get closer,
to get closer,
to get closer?
(to get closer)
I will do
whatever I have to do.
(to get closer)
Someone tell me
what we should do?
(to get closer)
I can’t take this anymore.
(Let’s get closer)
I’m still burning and scarred.
So please let’s get closer.
Sure I could wear
a flame retardant suit,
but that only seems to save me from the best of you.
Already callous from the scars:
sometimes this suit becomes a prison.
How many layers of skin
do I have to lose
to get closer
to get closer to you?
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Reg-X
04:55
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I don’t want to be a part of you.
I don’t align with your sense of justice.
There’s a part of you
and a world that’s just for me.
An anomaly: you,
a special brain in the sea.
And the part of you
that doesn’t understand trees...
Just let me sing.
I just wanna be free.
I don’t want to be another you.
How could I think that you could be trusted?
‘Cause I love you,
and you want what’s best for me?
You don’t have to do
anything for me.
Does it bother you
that I could up and leave?
Don’t clip my wings.
I wanna be free.
Don’t do it
don’t do it
don’t do it
don’t do it
and I won’t do it
won’t do it
won’t do it
won’t do it.
I don’t wanna take care of you.
You’re a human, not a pet or potted flower.
I’ve been crying, can’t water you,
but if I don’t do it
don’t do it,
would you live
would you live?
If I don’t do it
don’t do it
would you live?
Would you live
if I don’t do it?
Don’t do it.
Would you live?
Would you live?
Wanna go through with it?
I can show you one way.
How to burn a bridge.
“Never look back,” my father said.
There’s no distance
without a little conflict
This is useless.
You know it just feels like:
(instrumental + glossolalia & “if I love”)
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6. |
A Way Out
04:55
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You
said
life
wouldn’t be like
this
you
lied.
May-
be I’m
afraid
of living my own life
but
I try.
If we
can’t
find
a way out
of our
minds, we’re gonna
die online, 'cause nobody
tries online, and everybody
fries online.
Somebody end this scroll.
Please
put
down
that screen and talk to me,
please
try.
May-
be you’re
afraid
of true intimacy
and
crying.
If we
can’t
find
a way out
of our
li(v)es, we’re gonna
die online 'cause nobody
cries online, yeah everybody
hides online, and nobody
lends a hand.
(Miniature/Digital) eyes seek criminal minds
and the mirrors keep deep faking us all.
Glass screens won’t keep breaking,
silicone won’t disintegrate.
No matter what it takes oh
we’ll jailbreak and jailbreak and
(digital/miniature) lives in binary skies,
and our hands holding LED walls...
No more visible connection, no interaction
but Aaron said it’s only
a rectangle, rectangle.
(Miniature/Digital) eyes seek criminal minds
and the mirrors keep deep faking us all.
Glass screens won’t keep breaking,
silicone won’t disintegrate.
No matter what it takes oh
we’ll jailbreak and jailbreak and
(digital/miniature) lives in binary skies,
and our hands holding LED walls...
No more visible connection, no interaction
but Aaron said it’s only
a rectangle, rectangle.
It’s only there when you’re there.
It's only there when you're there.
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Blind Spot (Still Life)
05:57
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I didn’t see it coming.
Spun right off the road.
I should looked over my shoulder.
Text arrived on my phone.
Now I’m dying alone,
why of all times do I remember?
And I’m crying, you know
I can’t seem to forget her.
I forgot about the blind spot.
Now the lights keep on flashing
as drivers keep on passing me by:
my still life. Am I still alive?
Still life. Still alive.
Still alive in my still life?
Paint a portrait of me lying.
A photograph will do, too.
Freeze the frame, beat forensics.
Only you will ever know the truth.
And they’re trying you know
but they’re blinded looking forward.
Oh they lie, and they don’t know
that their flashes are on backwards.
My father said you can’t go forward
with your eyes in the rearview.
Maybe I’ve had it wrong this whole time
by driving on this western route.
Still life. Still alive?
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Interlude: Scrapyard
01:26
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Brand New Body
05:30
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You made false
DNA.
You made it part of my own
mechanical chromosomes.
Humans fall
every day, yeah.
But you…
yeah you
made me
shining
brand new.
When you fall
and fade away
you may still live on
in water, nitrogen, and carbon,
but I won’t fall
any day soon,
‘cause you…
yeah you
left me
shining
brand new.
Maybe if all my limbs
have felt,
very soon
my
man-made body
may cry
for everyone
like you
who I’ve outlived.
Oh why oh why
am I alive?
Oh why oh why
can’t I just die?
Well I’ll just carry on
and survive
without you, yeah,
and true
I’ll be alone, but
I’ll make do
without you, yeah
I will be strong
like I’ve always done,
thrive not survive
‘cause I’m alive.
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No Savior
04:51
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When you guess the way forward
you can stay stuck,
afraid for
yourself to fall—
so stay small.
Celebrate, love,
today you made a small
step in the
right direction
and one footfall
closer to dreams.
Say yay for
today’s sun..
Don’t wait for
a savior.
Face your unknown
and jump.
Where’re you going tomorrow
stay with me a while
and play more
like a child
with stars around you.
Make a brave choice,
swim a wave, boy,
take a plunge
to fight depression.
Patience, joy,
and love are all you need.
Say yay for
today’s sun.
There’s no
savior.
Make your own love.
Say yay for
today’s sun.
Don’t wait for
a savior.
Face your unknown
and jump.
Turning back, you never left
behind the sun where I was born,
but then again, we can pretend
instead he said, “remember when
it’s in it’s in it’s in it’s in
your head head head head.”
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I-330
05:27
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You
say
you’re
awake.
Please
come with me,
I don’t care anymore
I don’t carry a war.
If we
escape,
don’t be
afraid.
You know I don’t love this.
We will find
a way out,
I believe.
I believe in love’s will.
But do
you
do
you?
Do
you
do
you
want to stay mad
forever, and never
change your mind,
live in fear forever?
We could live together
out there.
Now tell me a secret.
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The Sound of Your Voice
04:28
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Haze of why,
colors in these eyes,
I can’t see. I can’t
get through the rain.
Blaze of white colors
and these feelings are stars;
I can’t see anything
but you.
Well raindrops
keep complicating
my brain every day.
Colors in my eyes
I can’t breathe,
I can’t sigh, I can’t
get any relief
from you.
Oh the sound of your voice
tickling my ear would be fine,
or your paper skeleton
enveloped in my arms in the morning.
Oh the song of your voice:
a whisper in my ear when we’re alone.
Oh the secrets we’ve known
will never be too secret for long.
Sing me a song
or write me a letter in the post.
If I could hear your voice
in the words you wrote
--"feel better"--
but I won’t ever feel
better
until I’m with you,
until I’m with you.
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Texting w/o Talking
01:43
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I was asleep
and the phone rings. I
was asleep; the phone
rings. Asleep was
the phone and I, ringing,
was the sleeping.
Rings the phone, I sleep,
phone
ringing, I was,
rings I was, sleep I was,
phone.
The phone asleep
I
rings phone I
was
the phone and the phone
was the
ringing and ringing was the
was
was the I
phone
ringing iPhone asleep
and I was I was
I was rings
ringing was
phone
ringing. I
sleep phone was I
and was the I
asleep phone I
was ringing and
I
was asleep, and the phone
I was
ringing sleep
phone ring I
rings phone and
when does
the phone start
ringing?
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Toothsome
02:09
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You choose
human life,
your disguise of love
Loose tooths
dangling lightly,
wangling quietly.
When you have days
remember
they love you.
We loved you.
I loved you
most of all.
Tell the truth
and I’ll save you.
You were safe.
You were safe.
You were safe.
You were safe
with me
here.
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Refresh
07:26
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Start all over
again and again.
Scroll for dopamine.
Glitch—start over (anew/a new)
jamais vu.
Your failings
come easily
like morning fading
into evening.
Will your new sayings
become clichéd
like fungus preying
on the fallen dead?
When you’re all in
you’ll be falling.
Hear it calling?
Will you fall in?
Now you’re older,
but here again.
Refresh—memory clean.
How many times have you
had jamais vu?
You’re fading
beyond the edge
of a signal failing
as you play pretend,
that is, evade and
say it’s all a game.
Well why do players
need to ease some pain?
When you’re all in
you’ll be falling.
Hear it calling?
Will you fall in?
[Hit REFRESH refill your head,
refresh, reset, forget. You’re mechanical
into your death. Refresh again.
You’re fed on Internet and you’re falling
in again. Refill your head.
Refresh, reset, forget. You’re mechanical
into your death. Refresh again
as if you’ve never played before.]
Say you won’t replay for long.
Say you won't replay for long.
Say you won't replay for long.
Say you won't replay for long.
Say you never never ever will.
Say you never ever will.
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17. |
New Weapon
05:50
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You weapon:
new weapon.
People tell you
that anything you do
is red white and blue.
You found this
interesting,
and it’s arresting.
New weapon...
New weapon...
Anything you do
can maybe come true,
maybe,
just maybe.
Anything you do
can maybe come true,
maybe,
maybe...
just maybe,
you weapon.
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Monarcadia
Monarcadia is musician, intermedia artist, and poet Alaric López.
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Since 2012
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